MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, April 03, 2008~~

Didn't know u all actually read my posts. Haha. Little did i know when i share this situation here, quite many are concerned. I m comforted in a way. hek hek. Before I shall reveal my decision. I shall share some pictures, which marked quite a few events, which i have been in charged of, one way or another, big posts or small, from the yrs of my poly life till now. I was quite amazed by the collection though, cos i realized i missed some of them out, and these events are only those that involved the school, not counting those out of school. haha...

In 2005...my baby contributions to SAG and NPS...

When 2006 comes...haha...ambitious me take on challenging roles to try and hold more bigger performance and concerts..and this is when i start to pray for miracles..lol

Wow...2005...2006...2007...2008. Events after events, concerts after concerts. I think some couldn't understand y i did so much. Neither could i explain it very well. Lol. I just knew that sometimes i did it out of ambition, sometimes i did it out for friends, which i treasure ALOT, and sometimes, its just out to clear s***. In any case, once i set on doing it, it must not fail, at least not too badly. haha...

Judging from the way i looked at it, these events certainly are the ones that i would be reminded of everytime, anytime when i recall of my school days. Nevertheless, there must be a stop somewhere. I have decided, to not take up the post. Heng was right after all. I guess he knows that when i said i needa start to love myself a little more, it also meant giving up on some things. Its just a matter of choice.

I feel for the club. I feel for the pple. I feel for the urge to want to be part of the family. But to lead the club, I know i can. BUt, at the expense of my time and family and studies. These sacrifices are more than what it really count in me still. I have done my part for Nocturne, and it turned out surprisingly- really really well. I wish my decision is well-respected. I will still be part of the team, to support when i can, but not to lead. Its too much to ask for right now. Thanks to all of those who have faith in me, but also sorry to the same bunch to my cowardice to take on the post. I followed my heart.

FYI now, they still want me in the comm, and i m still considering a mini post, one that i can be stagnant most of the time. But till now, i m a member. LOl. Enough of GE, here's the news abt my midterm exams. It sucked. Haha. The papers are killers!!! Horrible horrible papers. Physics i must say i gave up on 2 chaps, which meant that those qns regarding the chaps i didn't study i didn't do, and it was unexpectedly..half of the paper. lol. so now i got 50% chance to pass.

About my biochem. the tcher really sux. The paper is really darn ass. His notes contains like tons of mechanisms and its all in small print. extremely small- those that u enlarge ur ppt size to 200% also got difficulty reading-kind. And so I did my part and memorise and understand the others in normal print. BUT when his qns are out, instead of testing ABC, he tested 123%^%&. Which means, its not even relevant but out of focus kinda qns! So, u cannot even try. And sth even stupider happened. He carelessly repeated an mcq qn, which are 3m each. And some student told him abt it and he simply announced to the whole lecture group, "eh..students? qn11 and qn14 are repeats. so the 3m from the qn14 will be added on to qn 22." BLOODY HELL, qn22 is a structured BIOLOGY qn and he just added 3m to it, and its NOW 9m??? To get 6m for structured here is hell alr, wad's the 9m now man! Kaoz. Funny part is, suddenly when we started the paper, a rain storm started and flooded the school. Its for real. haha. When i left early after doing the paper, i walked out and the water level reached more than 10cm at certain places. lol. 老天都在哭泣.

In any case, i did my part. I studied. Will try even harder. But i wanna see results man. Haha. Hope i get my special term astronomy module. lol. And damn, i gotta shift to another hall room temporarily cos my hall's under maintenance..got fridge and all sia...so darn ma fan..who wanna help? lol...

站在十字路的交点出该怎么走,

你能不能了解

偶尔胆怯也并不是个错误

大雨落下的瞬间我突然发现

此刻的脚步若放慢一些

理智和情绪可能就会回到我身边

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